So, all week...I said I was going to be "done" with fine as hell guy because he hadn't texted me since Monday...and I felt like he was pulling away anyway. I said "if he doesn't text by Friday, I know it's over...and I'll have to be ok with that". So all week I mentally prepared myself for it...and guess what? At 7:43pm...I got a text from him. A wave of relief, mixed with confusion, mixed with excitedness washed over me. Why, though?! DAMN! I wondered what his text was going to say...something good? Something intriguing? Something admitting he wished he had talked to me sooner? NOPE. It said "lil homie, what's good?" Damn. smh. That's what I get. So, totally flabbergasted, I responded..."chillin. what about you?" and he said "at a bar. you in for the night?" and i said, frustrated at him only hitting me up when he's out drinking "yup...laying low. tsk." now, I know the "tsk" comment always confuses him. I think he takes it more seriously than I do...and he said "damn, why is that?" so I told him "seemed like a bootcall - not my steelo"...and it's REALLY not. I don't do booty...or calls...or bootycalls. I'm just a girl that likes to have nice, harmless fun, right? Anyway, he responded saying that "how is it a bootycall if i hit u up at 9pm? #context"...so i had to break it down to him that since we hadn't talked in a few days...and he hits me up on the friday night tip...it could be perceived as a BC. now...BIG MISTAKE for me to admit that. why the HELL did i say that and make it seem like i'm more into him than need be?! If only i could have those words back...this is why i don't like pretty boys...they always think/know girls are more into the than needed...and i'm not..but i'll be damned if he hits me up to give away my goodies. eff that!

So, he said it wasn't a BC at all and "his bad"...and i laughed and said "good then. no worries. all is forgiven." and he then texted the dreaded question that i never wanted to see "when'd you start thinking too hard?" DAMN! See...wtf. i never wanted that question. so i said "haha...hit me with the silly chick syndrome...lol" and he said "not at all"...so i said "ok...i just want to cover my ass-ets". i thought it was cute, at least anyway, i told him i was good...and that was that. and he said "you'll always be the homie". So, here's the rub -- what does THAT mean? See, there i go thinking too hard again. i mean, girls can be homies of other girls...or guys...and whatever. but guess what...i don't give a shit about the name homie OR about anything related to it. he answered my question which is....are we still cool? and by saying we'd always be homies, i guess i got my answer. so, what's gonna happen next? who knows. he prob won't text for another 5-6 days...and i'm not sure who's "turn" it is to text anyway...but i damn sure am not/can't. i've already embarrassed myself enough for a lifetime.

Sigh. this is why i don't flirt with friends...gets too complicated...but i guess I AM making it too complicated...and i need to stop. i kinda wish i had just let his ass go...but it's a pretty ass...so i'm glad he texted me and glad we're still cool. Such contradictions! Such is my life. damn.