Tears well up in my eyes
As he tells me something, I'm surprised
Because maybe everything we've said...is a lie.

How I had hoped that this would be real
No spoken lies...just something I could feel

Have you ever hoped for something that you've never had?
Prayed for a different outcome than you've had in the past?

I know I feel something budding deep in my heart
but I can't take the possibility of being torn apart

My fear of the unknown paralyzes me at times
So I struggle everyday to not let my heart resign

Oh how I wished that this would be different, better yet, ideal
Where he looks at me at sees more than just outwardly appeal

He sees a woman of strength, brilliance, and someone from whom he can learn
A shining light in a world of darkness, she helps him and he helps her in turn

He's someone she can lean on when she's tired of being strong
He comforts her, picks her up, and is a shoulder to lean on

But is that a realistic thing to hope for in any relationship you may find?
Or is this just the fairytale I buck against that lives in little girls' minds?

I want a mature love, a love that can endure the test of time
Where we can grow together, change, and laugh instead of whine

But today, I felt that that may not actually be real
because he told me a secret, something that he didn't have to reveal

And it's cool because I am in no position to object to anything in his life
Whether it's a weekend getaway or something that gives him strife

All I can do is say "no problem" and keep it moving so that I show that I'm fine
But damn, I wish is our situations were different so he could really be mine.