Today...is the first day...of the rest of my life. Every blog post until now has been tinged with pain, sorrow, hurt, infatuation, lust, and worldy desire. This is the FIRST post that reveals who I am today....and how Great GOD IS...and how today is a fresh start to the rest of my life, thanks to God and his will and goodness.

No, I'm not getting married. In fact, I am single, and finally breaking off the last attachment to my "ex". We've had an ambiguous relationship since I moved out 2 years ago, with him wanting to still be together and me not wanting that at all. However, it's been difficult to sever all ties because he's a part of my family, in essence. He and my brother are starting a gym together (he's financing it, and my brother is managing it), and he doesn't have any family that he talks to.

This is the FIRST post where I can admit -- I am worthy of the love God has for me, in heaven and on earth. My past, my family drama, etc....doesn't define me...my future is so bright that it outshines any darkness I may have weathered.

I have never been a "holy roller", but I've always believed in God. And lately, I have surrendered myself and submitted to his will, out loud, and he has been moving MOUNTAINS in my life ever since. I am a testimony to God's power and greatness...and his goodness and mercy.

I am who I am and where I am thanks to him. People ask me why I'm so successful (to them) in business, and it's because of him. Yes, I've had to work hard, but he has opened the doors.

Today, I will be severing the last tie to my ex...and though I feel confident that he knows I will do this today, I know he's still rather hold on to a piece of me than let me go. And that's going to be the tough part. I never want to hurt him...and in fact, I believe he's on of the best men in the world and would recommend anyone to date him. He's just not the man for me.

So, I'm praying over the situation and conversation and I know God will see me through. Faith without works is dead...I've had faith, but I haven't put in the work to finally sever it and move on with the next chapter in my life. But now, I'm more than ready and am excited for whatever the future holds.

I am single...happy...balanced...and in love...with myself. At my core, I'm at peace. There will be days that I'm frustrated, I'm sure...days when I'm sad, no doubt...but leaning on God's everlasting word will be my way through it all. And that's what I'm most excited about.

I'm finally (almost) back to being the REAL me...authentically...and I can't wait. I love this girl. For better or worse, she and I are 1...and can do anything with God's help.

I pray for all of you who may have stumbled on this blog...please know it's not by accident, if you have. There's a message somewhere in this blog for you...just sit still and think about what it may be. Open your heart to see what message comes through from your gut...from your soul...or from your heart. That's God whispering to you what you already know you should do. Trust it. Follow it. And he will see you through. I love you all. Be blessed, L